Although today is her day off work, Beth is dressed for the office: pencil skirt, white shirt, red mid skirt
Her favorite high heels and sweaters.
She eats sandwiches in a bar in southern Dublin, and when she goes to the toilet, except for one in the middle --
An old couple in the corner giggled at each other.
She's wearing women's clothing, but Beth is 36. year-
Elderly male civil servants, going out to participate in the activities of the dayfemme'.
She is single and straight and wants to get married "eventually.
A few days ago, I met Amanda at TH, a private club near St Stephen's Green, which specializes in cross-
Their admirers.
In the transvestite community, it's an unwritten rule that people are called by their female names, even if they dress up as men, but when I shake hands with Amanda, I have to pause the doubt a little, one is not
Nonsense Dublin male in his 50 s.
Later, I spoke to Stewart, 40. year-
The old separated craftsman who lives in Cork wants to meet a woman who has a serious relationship.
Still, sometimes it can be a problem for him to dress up as Stella.
"I want to have a real relationship with a woman," explains Stuart . " He says he has never been interested in men's sexuality.
But it's hard.
"I 've been dating for the past period and really liked some women, but, inevitably, when the theme of the second date came up, I said, I have to tell you one thing.
"These reactions are mixed, but the same conclusion is usually drawn.
"Some women look confused, some laugh, but most of them don't understand, which is usually when we break up," explains Stuart . ".
"It would be much easier if I were gay or bisexual, but I'm not ---
I am a straight man who likes to dress up as a woman.
I would rather be single and honest than suffer from lies . "
Both Stuart and Beth were photographed with a book, the voice of transgender people, produced by transgender activist Louise Hannon, to coincide with international anti-gay day on May 17.
The term "transvestite" covers a wide range of areas for men, lifestyle, family environment, occupation and industry.
A large part of the Irish transvestite group is heterosexual, and many are married.
The others are bisexual.
Among the married transvestites, many transvestites
Dress in secret, afraid of being discovered by a partner or child, while others are supported and encouraged by their wives.
Doctor, IT consultant, taxi
Drivers, builders, lawyers between the ages of 18 and 70;
"Dress" crosses all ages and social barriers.
They're called T-
Girl, gurls, Cross
What's more vague is that when she-males or he-shees.
They have their own jargon. -
"Passing" or "persuading" means successfully passing through women when going out;
"Being locked" means being considered a man dressed as a woman.
This is one of Dublin's many private clubs catering to the demon.
This is a veritable Velvet Underground, and its sofas and flock wallpapers provide a fascinating background for more adventurous trannies in Dublin.
Other clubs include
Run a Gemini Club in the north and a Bunty boudoir in old Haier.
They attract few weekend clients, mainly because going out is a huge and dangerous step for many men.
For about a year, another event called Secret Garden has been held by a transvestite female partner at an unlikely venue ---
Located in an industrial area of brancarstown, Dublin.
The paedophile activity takes place above a unit that sells adult toys, with a focus on giving people, including the transvestite, a private place away from the city center and unwelcome attention.
The incident stopped running earlier this year.
A participant in The Secret Garden told The Weekend: "The Transvestite is a good group of people.
Some people wear suits to change clothes in the dressing room, while others dress up as women.
"God helped them, and some of them were designed for very ugly women, but, once they put on their clothes, they really thought they were women.
"One night," they continued, "a lady in a wheelchair came here to dress up from head to foot in restraint gear.
There are two flights of stairs in the venue, there is no elevator, but no demon can lift her up the stairs.
"They act like women, waiting for a man to help her.
"People who go to the Secret Garden are not ashamed to spend money.
"If they don't have wigs, high heels or breasts ---
Three of their key procurement projects-
They will buy things in the store downstairs.
"They spent a lot of money, even if it didn't look very beautiful in the end," the former member said . ".
For transvestites living on the outskirts of Dublin, life may be plain and there is nothing to mention.
The "out-of-town" transvestites in Dublin go to the panteba, the Dragon Bar, the front lounge, and, to a lesser extent, George--
Or go to England, where the view is much more active.
In Dublin alone, there are six or seven demon makeup services, usually run by women, offering men the opportunity to dress, manicure and make-up
Done in a private environment.
They usually operate in the form of water droplets.
In the center, consulting and publicity services are concentrated together.
A woman who claims to be a "Suzy sequel" in an online ad offers a full range of dressing, storage, email and taxi services for a transvestite eager to protect her identity.
But behind the scenes and the banshers are still being treated with a nudge, a blink of an eye, and there is a broader, often confusing problem.
Stewart, who was separated from his wife and came out two years ago, spoke at the "weekend" in an attempt to promote understanding.
"I 've always felt complicated between men and women, and I believe I'm transgender, and he said:" At this point, I sometimes look at or act in a way that is contrary to the gender I'm assigned. ".
"So no matter what I wear, I don't mind people calling me Stuart or Stella.
Stuart's first memory of Cross
Dressing dates back to childhood.
"When I was four years old, my mom came over with a pile of fresh clothes and I asked if I could put some of her clothes on.
I just got out.
This is certainly a completely innocent act.
"He grew up in the West of England, one of the two children --class family --
The father is an engineer and the mother works from home.
"By the age of 10, I was getting deeper and deeper into my mom's wardrobe.
I was caught several times by my father and it was clear that it had to stop.
"In the 1970 s
"Dress is intolerable and not even slightly encouraged," he explained . ".
Then, dressed up as a female becomes a secret act of Stewart.
"I'm getting it underground," he said . ".
"It's a very personal thing for me.
I had a girlfriend at the time and she knew nothing about it.
"I left school when I was 16 and immediately got a job.
So when I was very young, I could buy wigs, high heels and clothes, usually by mail order.
Stewart, in his early 20 s, moved to London.
"One thing that has not moved with me is my cross --
"Wear clothes," he said.
"I threw away all my female clothes and did --up and wigs.
I want to start a new life in London, but I don't want it to be a part of it. ".
While working in the Harrods men's department, Stuart met his current predecessor
Wife, woman from Cork. In the mid-
In their 1990 s, they moved to Cork to develop a craft company.
For years, Stewart has suppressed her desire to dress up as a woman.
"Guilt took over everything," he said . "
"I think I will betray my beloved wife.
Desire to cross-
The clothes are still there, but I hold back.
The couple decided to separate two years ago.
"My wife left for six weeks and during that time I rediscovered cross-dressing.
I told her everything when she came back.
"When I blurted out, she said, 'This is when I thought she was excited to hear what I was sick.
She asked to see a picture of me in my clothes and the next day she asked to see me in my clothes.
To Stuart's relief, her reaction was positive.
"When she saw me, she said it seemed to be the most natural, the least threatening thing, and when I was dressed up as Stella, I had a lamp on my body, it never showed up when I was dressed up as Stewart, "he said.
Stewart and his ex.
The wife continues to share a house and is still "the best friend ".
"She has a new partner, and occasionally, the three of us in Stella's clothes go out for dinner with me, which is fine," he added . ".
Most of Stuart's friends and some family members know that he is a transvestite, but his parents don't know that they live in the UK and are now in their 70 s.
"It doesn't help them to know anything," he said . ".
Stuart described cross-
Dress him.
"I often use a sentence that people seem to get: when I wear Stella's clothes, it feels like you were a child and Christmas Eve.
This is a special feeling. everyone is in a good mood and has expectations.
"He denies that sexual elements can be crossed --
Wear clothes for him, but many still see it as sexual fetishism or off-track behavior.
There is no doubt that by reading online forums, admirers, usually bisexuals drawn to the transvestite, go online or go to the club in order to pick up the TV.
Some transvestites will go to Nimhneach, a fetish club in Dublin, but within the community, Cross
Dress is often not called a fetish.
For some TVs, wearing lingerie and clothes does cause sexual impulses.
For some, this is the expression of their female side;
This is an opportunity for others to perform and become a "gender magician ".
Stuart worries that sex has replaced the integrity of the cross.
Dress some people
"There's so much trash associated with the transvestite scene that there's so much about sex that really makes me frustrated.
I wrote something very extreme online.
"For me, it's about making friends with like --minded people.
I would compare it to a group of guys who go out on Friday night to watch the game and drink a few pints, except that we dress up as women.
"Now," he added, "I have a group of trusted friends who know what I'm doing and don't pester me about sex anymore.
"TENI (Irish network for the equality of transgender people) includes transgender people in its transgender dictionary, but transgender people in the LGBT community (lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender) often look down on transgender people, because they are only men who throw a dress every weekend, they should not belong to the same umbrella group as transgender people, who have gone through a long and difficult process of changing sex.
"There is a level of respect within the community," a source said . ".
"There are also some infighting.
"Gay men are annoyed with the transvestite because they suspect that they are really gay and can't deal with it, but play men by dressing up as women, so, banshies sometimes feel like they don't belong to gay bars.
For Stuart, going out as Stella means savvy and thickskinned.
It is important to plan the route and arrange the night.
"For example, you will never find me in a bar or club --out time;
"It's just making your life difficult," he said . ".
"I either left before that or stayed until the end of the pain.
"As a TV, you need to have a sense of humor because you will cry if you don't.
I can laugh with the comments and it works, but 1970 of the sitcom "transvestite" is still being laughed at and it does annoy me
"It's like Dick Emory or 'you are enslaved, '" he continued . ".
"It's sad that the concept of transvestite is still pretty much the same as it was 40 years ago.
The concept of ridicule was touched when feminist Jayman Greer condemned transgender people as "terrible parody.
Although she refers to transgender people, her comments apply to transgender people as well.
"Now, it is very likely that we all meet people who think they are women, with women's names, women's clothes, and a lot of eye shadows, who seem to be some kind of terrible parody," German said: "Although it is impolite to say so. ".
"We pretend that all the people who have walked for women are true.
"Other Illusions may be challenged, but not the illusion that men think they are women," she continued . ".
The so-called "transgendered" by Jeman responds to the reaction of many women when they find their partner or friend to be a transvestite.
Beth, 36, said: "I know a lot of transgender people who are happy to get married and their wives encourage them to go shopping or buy clothesyear-
Old civil servants
"But when the wife finds out that the husband is wearing a female costume, the reaction can go from absolute disgust to suppression of uninterest to acceptance.
While women are more receptive, people closest to men sometimes feel challenged by their femininity, Beth says.
"Generally women know it better than men, but it can be more tricky in close relationships ---
"The woman's smelly claws came out," she explained . ".
"They will feel threatened and say, 'What is wrong with me? I'm not good enough as a woman? You have to dress up as "social situations can also be dangerous," Beth said.
"I was at a Christmas party a few years ago and a lady yelled at me.
She told me it was disgusting that she didn't approve of what I did.
"It turned out that her sister's predecessor was bisexual, and in doing so she cheated her and wore underwear with men.
"I said, 'It doesn't matter, but I'm just at a party dressed up as a woman.
I didn't cheat my wife or have sex with other men.
I am a single man who wants to get married one day.
Now, would you like a drink? She did not stay for a drink.
"Ten years ago, Beth appeared as a demon and has been active on the scene since then.
"Although I was not in front of them, my family knew.
Most of my friends know that, in fact, these days I prefer to dress out during the day rather than at night.
I have lunch with my friends, go shopping or take a walk in the park.
"It's a hobby for me, a past --
"It's time," Beth explained.
"I wear clothes on weekends or off days and bank holidays, but some nights when I get home from work, I just want to flip the cards in front of the TV in my sportswear.
Some go to play golf or throw;
I wore a skirt.
"In Dublin, in its 1990 s, the transvestite scene seems to be moving towards the mainstream, with celebrities lining up for parties at Mr Pussy's cafe near Grafton Street.
"TV restaurant" and "transvestite" are popular.
Alan Armstrong (aka Africa)
An article at that time quoted Mr. Pussy as saying that there were as many as 30,000 disguised Queens in the country.
Then it's Shirley Temple Bar, where she shows RTE's telipin in drag and continues to perform at the George Theatre in Dublin.
Allen recalled visiting the Amanda Barry Center, a popular North side meeting place at the city's crossroads.
Dressed like a woman, watching rugby and drinking a few pints with a man. "Nowadays, no-
"People care about whether men will dress up as women going out," he said . "
"It's not a big deal.
Twenty years later, however, a thriving transvestite scene remained largely underground.
Relatively few of them go out to socialize in women's clothes.
Many people have met their needs.
Wear clothes without telling your wife and partner.
In recent weeks, former defense force member Monahan-
Stephen Klingen, based in Stephen Klingen, was suspended and fined 1,000 euros for beating his wife after she found out that he met a Philippines online with him
It is reported that Stephen's online friends have gender anxiety (not satisfied with their gender) and Stephen was planning to move to the Philippines at the time.
After the incident of January, he separated from his wife.
"The Transvestite is still a question of ridicule, not a fact," said Racha, a New Yorker.
Run TH club on Harcourt Street, Dublin.
Ireland is still a very conservative country.
Dressing men as women is still one of the last taboos.
Eliza explains her understanding of transvestite and her perception of transvestite. "I liken cross-
Dressed up as gay because of the "out-of-the-box" ingredients, many TVs are afraid of being exposed.
"I believe this is something you are born with, not a lifestyle choice, because there are many shortcomings and there are not so many advantages.
"Of course, there is a simpler way of life," she added . ".
Laza, who also runs a transvestite dress-up service, says men dressing up as women is a big step away from their home privacy, even if it's for the relative safety of a private dress service or a club that everyone else crossesdressing.
She said: "Some men will never leave the safety of the bedroom, while others will wear wigs, high heels, women's clothing, fake nails, makeup --up, everything.
"When men first came to the club, they were worried about meeting people they knew, whether they were at the club or leaving the club because the club was like a Krystle copper face Jack.
Costa explains how the dress service
Dress men on a practical level. "If a cross-
The Dresser is married and has not yet told his wife that he cannot buy clothes at home or online.
Dress service is available here.
"Shopping can be a big problem for men who don't have the courage to go to the women's clothing store to buy women's clothing, so the dresser usually also offers shopping services," said PROFA.
She added: "Many mainstream stores, such as M & S, Debenhams, and even Dunnes, are very happy with this;
The sales assistant will allow the TV to try on women's clothing.
"I believe this is something you were born with," said Amanda, a Dublin male in her 50 s.
Wear clothes at 9 or 10.
"When I first started wearing clothes, I thought I was the only person in the world to wear clothes," she said . ".
"Then I realized that a lot of people like to wear clothes, which is much more common than you think.
Amanda is single and she says "I'm the only woman I need in my life", although the facts may be more complicated than that.
She avoids wearing black wigs because they give her a 5-point shadow, but she loves the glamorous look of the night.
"I don't believe there is a pill that can cure it," she said . ".
"Even if there were, most transvestites wouldn't want to take it ---
They like what they do too much.
"At the end of the day, however, we dress up as women to go out, but we can only imagine what it feels like to be a woman.