Even during my hedonistic youth, somewhere in my head, I have a "list" of life ".
I had envisioned meeting a man of my dreams around the age of 29 and getting married around the age of 30.
I did meet the man I dreamed of when I was 29, but I think we went the wrong way somewhere and our relationship was in trouble.
But if there is any reason in the phrase "what happens to life when you make other plans", I think the same logic applies to love.
In terms of sex, I am a new person and a very wild teenager.
Me and my 24-year-
Old French teacher, nude makeup
Party in my pool on weekends.
But even though I like adventure and curiosity, when I please the boy, I am more concerned with taking all the right actions than pleasing myself.
Because of this, I never had a climax until I was 19 (
Although I did some Oscarworthy faking).
My real moment happened in college and when I went to see a sex educator talk frankly about myself
Love and play a video of women touching themselves.
I went to the chemist the next day and bought the Hitachi Magic Stick vibrator (
It's for "neck pain ")
45 minutes later I locked myself in the bathroom and came out with a new woman.
Once I realized that I had to be responsible for my own happiness, sex and relationships in my twenties were all about experiments.
There was one, two and three bedside tables, lesbian, scuba diving instructor who gave me my first orgasm through blowjob, Sex Party, the one who told me that men could also have multiple orgasms, they were all discovered by random, amazing encounters.
As I approached my middle age, I was worried about protecting myself from pregnancy and sexually transmitted diseases
When I was in my twenties, I realized that I was also very good at protecting my emotions.
So I let someone in and went through my first real heartbreak.
But even so, I quickly overcome all this because the relationship at that time was mainly about the self.
Discover and share experiences with my friends, with men who support roles.
I'm glad I did this before I had a child or husband.
Now that I'm in my thirties, I'm going to limit my crazy bedroom antics to one (very lucky)
Man, I believe my sexual exploration will make me a better partner inside and outside the bedroom.
I am more stable, confident and happy than ever before.
But dating is more difficult because there are more people in line.
I haven't decided about the child yet, but the reality of the biological clock means I don't feel like I have much time to waste on the wrong person in case I decide to have a baby.
Maybe it's because women put too much pressure on themselves to have it all.
Although 36-year-old Cameron Diaz and 39-year-old Jennifer Aniston are beautiful, rich and have a great career, they often become the subject of headlines, ask why they haven't found "that" yet ".
At the same time, everyone wants to know who will be lucky to finally land 47-year-
Old George Clooney, instead of questioning the wisdom of dating someone formed with a pot with one of the most intense emotional connections so far --bellied pig.
But I think we can all learn something from George.
He does not care about the routine and is opening his own way.
I hope to do the same, live my life and finally find someone who can bring me wonderful conversations and swings --from-the-
Chandelier sex is as good at 60 and 30.
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